I haven’t written here a lot lately.
I’m in a tight and prickly spot.
You see, I’m ready to “graduate” from being a PPD survivor to attempting a ‘normal’ life.
It’s a wonderful feeling, riddled with guilt at leaving friends and friendships ‘behind’. Namely any of you reading this that aren’t where I am right now. Maybe hurting your feelings (unwittingly) in the process of going and growing.
I need to see if I can handle being a healthy mom. Part of that for me means putting my PPD past behind me and moving on. Healing. Sealing. Sailing.
Not writing on LAB every single day. Not attending support groups until I’m ready to come back to them after having a few years of successful “normalcy” under my belt.
Taking a big step back from my responsibilities with LAB. Stepping into a weekly Bible study that I desperately need and have no idea whether I’ll be able to ‘handle’ in the weekly homework department.
I want to try to live out what I wish for each LAB mommy friend I’ve met and made. To see you flourish as you get healthy, and seek new growth.
So, that’s why it’s been so quiet on the LAB scene. At least from my perspective.
But on a lighter note, I’m also afraid that every PPD friend I make will up and move to a new state out of the blue (Bobbie, Lisa, who’s next? You?)
So forgive me if you feel it’s been a long while since you’ve heard from me. It’s on purpose, but not in a bad way. I’ve been busy basking in health that’s not been marred by a “bad day” or “funk” for months. And figuring out what’s next for me and my family.
And boy, howdy, wait ’til I tell you what “what’s next” is…
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